I Hope You Dance

I heard this song on the radio on my long journey home from spending some much needed time with family and friends.  As I left my mom's house this morning I was in tears, bitter sweet, sad and frustrated tears.  As this song came on, I turned up the volume and felt a sudden sense of calmness.  I felt like DJ had put this song on just for me, for me to relax and really hear what the words were saying to me.  I feel lately like I have been on a roller coaster, an intense, throw you around roller coaster and I needed to come to a screeching hault from my ride and take a step back for a minute and this song did that for me.  I sat in my car alone and listened to the words, really listened to them, through tears and all.  During the last couple of weeks I have felt myself falling into a very deep depression, not only because every day I miss my love more and more, but because I am becoming so scared of the future, of what I am going to do to keep our family going both emotionally and financially.  One of the verses in the song really stuck out to me.  It says "Never settle for the path of least resistance."  This is something DJ would say to me and it is so true.  Something that he told me several times was "one reason I fell in love with you was because of your strength."  I am strong and always have been!  I know that I am allowed my times of weakness, but I have been feeling like that strength has left me for good, that I will  never find that strength again.  For a moment while the words of the song flowed through me I felt like super woman, like I could take on the world and win!  After that moment passed, I realized that I AM super woman and any obstacle that comes in my way I can tackle and I WILL succeed!  I have never been one to bow down to anyone or anything and I will not begin now!  I want to make my love proud of me, our children proud of me and I want them to come out of all this stronger than ever before just like their Dad would want!  I hope that all of you, when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, you DANCE!!!